Working Towards Our Purpose

Hello and welcome back to my podcast.

Working towards our purpose. So it's been a minute.

Welcome back for me as well. I think it's probably been like

six plus months since I released an episode

and actually it's probably been longer than that. But bringing it back

and feeling inspired and

kind of going through some changes in my life

and feeling like it's the right time to bring this back.

So it's going to be a little bit different. I think I'm going to

have far less guest interviews and more sort of

shorter episodes that are kind of me talking about different sorts of

topics that I want to cover. Not gonna put a super

goal on it right now. Ideally it would be great if it was weekly.

Um, but, you know, just gonna kind of start and, and see where it goes.

Um, but I do want it to be a little bit different in the fact

that it's gonna be shorter, it's gonna be mostly me, and it's also

gonna be unedited and not as like perfect

as the last one was. I used to spend a lot of time editing the

previous podcast, the previous version of this podcast. Um, and

this one's just gonna be a little bit more unfiltered.

So hopefully that, you know, works out and

we'll both kind of see how it, what it turns into.

It's definitely a little bit more nerve wracking for me, a little more,

you know, overthinking. And that's kind of the point of this, is to not

overthink it and to just do it. So with that being

said, I want to talk about the topic that I got today and

then at the end I'll talk about maybe what's going to

be going forward with this podcast and what to expect. So

that being said, today I want to talk about music.

So music is for me, something that I've done a

pretty good portion of my life. Started playing guitar in

high school and kind of never stopped being

more and more and more involved in music. And

I've always been really quiet about it. So part of

this episode and some changes that I'm making going forward

is that I want to talk about doing music more. I want to talk about

me doing music more and sharing what I do. I had

a conversation with a close friend

recently and he kind of encouraged me to

share more of what I do. And

taking his advice and he, yeah, we'll get into

that. But yeah, so some changes

happening in my life. Gonna be leaving a job that I've been doing

for a little bit now. I'M kind of

ending a business that I had trying to get into

something new. Don't quite know what it is yet, but feel

very motivated and encouraged to move in that direction.

So I'm taking that inspiration and kind of running with it.

Um, don't have another job lined up and

kind of worried about that, but also kind of

trusting and, you know,

thinking that it will work itself out and I will be able

to figure it out regardless. So kind

of taking a step of trust in this pivot of my

life. But I've noticed that there's, you know, my job

specifically that I'm just ending now was leading

to a lot of unhappiness in my life. And it was something that at one

time worked, but it's not now, and I need to change

that. So kind of backtracking again. But

again, the point of this episode and

what I want to talk about is music. And for me, that

is one thing in my life that I am confident in

and that I know that I want to do. And I know when I'm

making music and writing and creating and recording,

it's something that I feel is true to me and

I feel alive when I'm doing that. I feel like I'm

using my time in the way that I want to be using it.

I feel just a greater

sense of purpose when I'm. When I'm able to create something that I like.

And. And I, for the longest time in my life, just kind of ignored it

and had other jobs and, you know, didn't have time for it. And when I

worked a full time job, I almost stopped doing music

completely and didn't give myself a lot of time at all to do it.

But the past few years I've been really prioritizing it and really

been taking it seriously and not

thinking like, okay, this thing that I do that

takes a lot of time doesn't make me any money and

kind of not using that as a valid excuse anymore because

it brings me much greater things other than

money, like happiness and again, sense of purpose.

And now it's something that I'm like trying to share with other people and

slowly but surely kind of putting it out there and can turn

into something that I never imagined. So, um,

that is one thing that I am sure about in my life. And I

do know that I want music to be in my life and

taking it as a serious part of my life, even though it doesn't pay me.

Um, so I know that it's

something that is important to me and

therefore I'm valuing it and I'm. And I'm putting more time and energy

into, into it. And I've been thinking a lot about how

I want to live my life. And I'm

reading like three really good books right now at the same time.

And they kind of all are touching on this subject of like making

your dreams and goals realities. And

in order to do that, getting really specific on what that looks like. And

I've done some exercises and some writing

and envisioning and really thinking about like, how I want to spend

my time. Ideally thinking about nothing else other

than like how I would choose to live my life and

really thinking about that and trying

to incorporate any of that into my life now. And

you know, if money wasn't an option, if I didn't have, you know, to.

If I could do anything with my time, music would definitely be able to big

part of it. So that's what I'm doing now. That's what I've been doing

for the past two or three years. Two

years. And so this year I was really thinking about that

too. And at the beginning of the year, I

finished an album at the end of last year and released it. And

at the beginning of this year I was thinking about like, how I want to

approach music for 2025. And

I came up with this idea of

writing, recording and releasing a song each month, for every month.

So then by the end of the year I'd have 12 songs, which is, you

know, kind of a full length album. Well, it is a full length

album, but kind of just spaced out in

single format. And the idea behind that was that

last year I had this like collection of songs. And then I got to like

October and I was like, oh, I should do something with these. I should put

them together, I should record them. And then I kind of like rushed to put

them together and record them and

mix them and master them and everything. And I kind of did

that process once and I was like, okay, well if I am still writing

that many songs, but I'm doing it now at a monthly rate instead

of a yearly rate, then theoretically I could be 12 times

better at recording, writing, mixing, mastering. So that

was kind of the idea to just repetitively kind of keep doing

the process over and over and over again each month. And so

far it's worked out really good. And I've had my

sixth song. My June song comes out on

Monday, June 30th, which is the. Probably the

same day I'm going to release this episode. And yeah, I'VE just

been really happy with the process so far. I feel like they're coming out better

and better. I feel like my writing is getting better. I feel like my mixing

is getting better. And, yeah,

it's something that I am now trying to share

with the advice from a close friend. And,

you know, I've decided that music is this important thing for me. And

I think out of fear, I don't want to share it. I don't want to

be judged by it. I don't want people to perceive me in a

certain way. But these are all limiting fears that I. I have.

And if I do really care about this thing that I'm doing,

I think it's doing it a disservice and doing myself a disservice by

not sharing it or telling everybody that I'm doing it. So,

yeah, the topic of this episode is just really like, talking about that and saying,

hey, I make music and release it. And

yeah, that's a scary thing for me. It's difficult

to say that for some reason and

still getting used to it. But I'm trying to make less

decisions based out of fear these days. And that was

one I was keeping to myself for a while, and I don't want

to do that anymore. So. So,

yeah, I think really thinking about, like,

putting my mind to something and accomplishing it.

And yeah, I think a goal,

you know, I talked about, like, thinking about goals. I. A goal that I have

for music specifically for myself in the future would be to

have. I had a goal. I kind

of changed it a little bit at first. It started out as 15,000

listeners on Spotify, and then it ended up as a hundred thousand.

And that's not because I

want the credentials of social

acceptance, but more so that I. I would like to be able to reach

people with the music that I'm creating because I

would hope to make connections and have it resonate with other people.

And another goal, too, would be also to eventually get some

source of income from my music. And with a hundred thousand

listeners on Spotify, you can make. Well, it kind of changes every day,

but a couple hundred bucks a month, I think, and

that would be kind of cool to make a couple hundred bucks off of something

that I'm doing anyways. So, you know, I'm not, like,

totally tied to that goal, but I'm putting it out there in the universe and

trying to work towards that. And I think

the way that I can contribute to working towards that is not

only constantly creating music, but also starting to tell

people and that's always been the hardest part for me is

trying to just say, hey, I'm doing this, here it is.

So this is my episode of being like, hey, I'm doing this, here it is.

So yeah, that, that was kind of what I wanted to say in this

episode. It's probably a little bit chaotic.

Like I said, I'm not used to this like non editing sort

of stream of conscious type podcast,

but I want to get used to it and I want to get better at

it and thinking about how I'm getting better at making music,

I can think of podcasting in the same way and that if I can keep

doing this, maybe make it a weekly habit just then six

months from now I'll be able to do this, no problem. And so

yeah, thanks for bearing with me through this. If it was a little clunky

or all over the place, but it is something that I

would like to do because podcasting was

again another source of encouragement

and energy and fulfillment and purpose for me. Just like music is when I was

interviewing people and I really felt good about doing the

podcast and the only reason I stopped was scheduling

conflicts. Like it was really hard to get people booked. Everybody's busy

and that was one aspect. But then the other aspect was I was also busy

myself and it became just too much

work for me and I was getting burnt out because I wasn't getting

anything in return. So this go around I'm gonna try to

make it a little bit easier on me by not editing but by not having

guests most of the time and just keeping it a little bit

shorter in an efforts to keep it more sustainable for me.

And yeah, so going forward, I think I want to talk about

certain topics that I'm working towards.

Things like reaching goals and setting goals

and reaching your dreams and actually dreaming and figuring

out what you want and figuring out what I want. It's kind of going to

be following my next journey on

to figuring out what it is that I want to

do with my time in my life. And maybe in another episode I'll

get a little more specific on that.

But yeah, I just want this to be a place where I can also share

things that I've learned. I do a lot of reading and I read a

lot of life changing, amazing books and

would love to be able to share that with somebody that wants to listen. So

there'll be a lot of that going forward. And yeah,

I think really finding, like I

said earlier, just, just finding this new energy and inspiration going

forward and I think it's coming from choosing myself

and choosing to not stay in a job that I

don't feel I'm being. Being treated well in and kind of standing up for

myself and being like, you know what? This isn't worth it for me anymore. You

know, And I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm gonna leave, and

I'm gonna let. It's. I'm gonna let the rest of it figure itself out.

And kind of trusting and having that. That faith

and. Yeah, that's kind of where I'm at.

And also don't know how to wrap these episodes up, but

this will. This is me trying to wrap it up.

And, yeah, I will see you on another

episode real soon. It.